1 year ago today I was referred to an Oncologist. The fear. I have come so far and truly put so much behind me, but I knew this week was the time I learned I may have cancer.
It became a whirl wind and I just got blown around with it. I was weak. I was fearful. My life was up in the air and I couldn't catch it.
I can't believe where I am now. Five months out of cancer treatment. I fought. I hid a lot pain from my family and friends. I gave up a few times. I was joyful and I was sorrowful.
Now I am preparing my little classroom for another school year filled with 3 classes and a total of 36 kids. I took and passed my Ohio and National real estate exams in May and am now selling. I am feeling the energy and strength I once had. I am noticing a bit more patience. Things just aren't getting to me as much. Ah.....I guess I have figured out what's important in life.
I do panic once in a while. I worry about what is going into my body. What I am eating or breathing even what my skin may absorb. I still get teary when I go to the Doctor, the memories there just hit hard. I'm sure that won't be forever. I guess it's good that I am aware.
I am choosing to make each day count. I am taking chances. I am using the good dishes. I am taking the time. I am living!
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