About 5 years ago I made a decision. One that would change my thinking, relationships and lifestyle. I made a conscience decision to stop complaining. It hasn't been easy I have stumbled along the way. Okay, sometimes I complain in my head.
I choose to look at the positive or ways to change the situation in order to lessen the want to complain. Complaining is so negative and contagious. I choose to separate myself from people who complain also. I will either have an urgent need to leave the room or just not contribute to the conversation.
So, 4 months ago I was told I had Cancer. Hmmmmm, good reason to start complaining? Not really. I have been through 1 biopsy, 2 surgeries, and 4 chemo treatments and through it I all I have no recollection of complaining. I could be wrong, with chemo brain and all. So, I thought now was a good time to recap my side effects for all those who ask me "How are you doing?" Usually, I believe, they can tell when I smile and say "I'm alright" or "Today is a good day". I don't want to complain, because there is truly nothing the person asking can do.
"I'm alright" generally means. I'm wearing real clothes today! I am able to shower without feeling like I'm going to pass out. Smells make me nauseous. My vision is blurred. My fingertips are numb. My legs are weak. I could use a nap.
"Today is a good day" usually consists of eating small meals. Being upright the entire day. I am able to do some chores around the house. Everything in the above paragraph.
But, I am not complaining. I am alive. I wake up everyday to a warm house and family. I have a loving and committed husband. I have happy children. I have food to eat and water to drink. I have support of friends. I have a God, who is healing me every day. So bring it on! I'm not complaining.
Bring the Rain- Mercy Me
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